St. Charles/St. Louis Photographer ~RANDOM THOUGHTS~

An inside look of what is going on in my brain today. Be afraid. Be very afraid. I will warn you, my thoughts are all over the place today...I will number my thought is an attempt to be better organized (a goal for the new year!) 1) I have completely & totally failed at the blogger challenge. Life & sickness has gotten in the way:( I am going to try again after the holidays. 2) I have so much personal & profession stuff to blog about. One of my goals, no NOT New Years Resolution, actual real goals that I hope to reach, is to become a better, more interesting blogger. I want everyone to actually get to know me. The real me. The goofy, quirky, sometimes funny, sometimes sarcastic me. Yes, these walls I've build up around me are going to come down! Yes, the last 6 yrs have been a challenge for me. Yes, I need to forgive myself in order to move past some things. Yes, I need to open up myself to the possibility of getting hurt because it's a part of life. I need to learn to trust people again and by golly I am going to do this. I heard someone (okay so it was the dude who got a new house build by Extreme Home Makeover from my hometown of Pensacola, Fl....Holla!!!) He said no matter what happens in your life....KEEP LOVE IN YOUR HEART! This moved me more than I can say. Man, I am going to start keeping more love in my heart! I am going to keep love in my heart for the lady at the school pickup line who always glares at me when I park and walk up to pick up my daughter( um HELLO, it's allowed.) Oh wait, that was not keeping love in my heart. FAIL. Okay, so I am a work in progress;-) I'm going to keep love in my heart for people who cut in front of me in line (i might have to bite my tongue though, hey just keeping it real!) Anyway, you get the drift. 3)This year I am going to lose this extra weight. I have to! I booked a family photography session with Clary Pfeiffer from Clary Photo so dadgummit I AM going to look good for those photos! I've got 4 months so pray for me people. Pray hard!!! Those sweets do me in! 4) I want to learn film photography in 2011. So excited but I have no clue where to start! 5) My house needs to be decluttered something fierce. Come spring time I am throwing stuff out to the curb! Anyone want to buy a queen size futon? 6)I want very much to become more involved in the church I'm going to. I love this church!(Refuge Church St. Charles, Mo) 7)I want to make more friends. Real friends. Friends with common interests & goals. It's been a long time since I've let someone "in" and it's time! 8) I really wish my "sick" daughter would stop jumping on the couch. Oh crap, now I have turned into my mother! Um, not that this is a bad thing...Hi Mom, love you:) Okay so these are the thought going through my head right now & I have to come to realize after reading this post that therapy may be in order, lol! Have a great day friends! :) Remember to always KEEP LOVE IN YOUR HEART!!!